Tuesday, December 14, 2010

a little more fun

I am trying to have "a little more fun" with my blog. I don't want anyone to be under the impression that my life revolves around getting pregnant. I have so many things in my life that bring me joy. Reading is one of them! Here are a few books I am reading now....

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My grandmother loaned me these 3 books. I am almost done with the third. I love, love, love the time period!!

I am reading/studying this book with a group of women. I think we are all becoming more aware of how to live live more externally focused...especially this time of year!

Ummm...I'm kinda reading this book. I started it before my surgery. I am of the belief that if you have surgery you can eat whatever you want. BUT...back to reality. I looked at it collecting dust on my kitchen counter tonight and figured I better take a peek. I need to begin "phase one" soon!!!

OK...I hope that was fun!

Oh yeah, I got all the pictures from http://www.amazon.com/

Sunday, December 12, 2010


There are 2 reasons for this post:

1. This past spring I was blessed to be part of a Bible study that read this book.
It is about how believers have neglected the Holy Spirit and the power that it has in our lives...very eye-opening. I should probably read it again soon.

2. I recently began reading this blog and she does something called "Sunday Scriptures". I love this idea. So, I decided to start my own...conveniently, the sermon at church this morning was on the Holy Spirit. So, I would like to share a few verses that I find comforting regarding the Holy Spirit.

In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.
-Romans 8:26

My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me...For when I am weak, then I am strong.
-2 Corinthians 12:9-10

My the God of hope full you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
-Romans 15:13

Thursday, December 9, 2010

"You see, he didn't have to go. He had a choice. He could have stayed. He could have kept his mouth shut. He could have ignored the call or at least postponed it. And had he chosen to stay, who would've known? Who would have blamed him? "He could have come back as a man in another era when society wasn't so volatile, when religion wasn't so stale, when people would listen better. "He could have come back when crosses were out of style. "But his heart wouldn't let him. If there was hesitation on the part of his humanity, it was overcome by the compassion of his divinity. His divinity heard the voices. His divinity heard the hopeless cries of the poor, the bitter accusations of the abandoned, the dangling despair of those who are trying to save themselves. "And you can be sure of one thing. Among the voices that found their way into that carpentry shop in Nazareth was your voice. Your silent prayers uttered on tearstained pillows were heard before they were said. Your deepest questions about death and eternity were answered before they were asked. And your direst need, your need for a Savior, was met before you ever sinned. "
-Max Lucado

Monday, December 6, 2010


it's never easy. i spent a good part of my afternoon at the wound clinic. it appears that i have a tiny spot of my incision that is not healing properly. i won't bore you (or gross you out) with the details, but hopefully the course of treatment will help me be all better soon.

"my wound has to heal from the inside out"-- i've said those words many times since friday to people who have asked how my post-op visit went. but, tonight that simple sentence just took on a whole new meaning.

so many people hurt...i'm not the only person with a story of struggle, and i am definitely not the one with the most tragic story. when i look around i am so blessed.

however, since my surgery i truly feel healing from the inside out...not physically, but emotionally...spiritually. it seems kind of wierd that a surgery to hopefully "cure" my infertility would be the thing that helps me be okay if i never conceive, but it has. over the last two weeks i've come to the conclusion that i've done almost everything that human hands can do.

dr. honea told me that she was able to remove everything that needed to come out, and we would work aggressively to get pregnant to try to beat it before it grows back. so, that is the plan. i will continue to seek infertility treatments over the next few months, but if the tumors and adenomyosis beat me...then...oh gosh...can't believe i'm saying this...I'M DONE. if that happens i'm not going to act like i won't be crushed. i will be crushed. His grace is sufficient.

When my heart was grieved
and my spirit embittered,
I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.

Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
Whom have I in heaven but you?

And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.

Those who are far from you will perish;
you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.
But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds.
Psalm 73:21-28